Feb 18 2009

The Knives are out …prepare for battle…there will be blood…


So Voldemort called me ……*sigh and roll my eyes* its official, he is emotionally retarded and definitely in cloud kukoo land. He called to say (compressed version) ” I have been looking at options for work and I am thinking of moving to Australia so make a plan for yourself because I am looking to leave”

Uh Uh!! Oh hell no he did’nt - Firstly the  phrase snowballs chance in hell springs to mind LOL
Australia huh…the last time I checked  the immigration laws that side are mad crazy! Secondly I thought you  need MONEY to emigrate? Thirdly make a plan?? N*GGA we are married - we need to get that sorted surely.  He had the nerve to tell me the other day that (because he is broke) he wants ME wo pay for the divorce, his lawyers, my lawyers AND all legal costs??? Now I may be a bit dim sometimes but i sure as hell am not RETARDED?? WTF?? so……..just because his stupid ass walked out on our marriage, left our marital home, went loco, quit his job at the cusp of one of the biggest recessions the world has ever seen, decided to go contracting and has been skint ever since, is messing with a no good troubled toxic ho….some where some how he has had a brilliant brain wave and thought hold on let that stupid woman pay for everything because she has money!?

 LMAO pull the other one mate - I work HARD for what I have and I refuse to clean up the mess that HE hade, he made a rod for his own back and he lost the right to have me fix his fuck ups when he left!  I am off to New York in a week and i intend to shop my ass off BECAUSE I CAN!! I work 3 jobs and its not fun or easy but I do what  I need to do to get to where I want to be.

Anyway the knives are definitely out and where I tried to be dignified and mature about shit, he decided to take it THURR so I told him a few home truths and my lawyers are good to go!!  I have taken too much for too long to continue taking shit ……how nice is too nice?


Feb 9 2009

25 Random things about me

1/ I was dreading getting tagged by someone for this list thing

2/ I usually ignore these lists

3/ I have a Hypersensitive sense of smell which means that I sometimes change tube carriages/buses if I smell something that does not agree with me

4/ My biggest fear is death

5/ I feel that I will die young

6/ I was a gymnast till the age of 13

7/ I can play 3 musical instruments and enjoyed horse riding as a child

8/ I can also play the tambourine

9/ I don’t watch Crimewatch anymore as it makes me depressed about the state of the world and peoples general depravity

10/ Sometimes I suffer from empathy fatigue – there is so much suffering sometimes I feel anaesthetized against the suffering of others and just turn the page……..

11/ Sometimes the news makes me cry

12/ I don’t buy celebrity gossip magazines as I find there is something quite morbid about paying money to read about the heartbreaks/break downs/divorces/drug addiction of others

13/ I wish I was a better friend/sister/daughter

14/ I think I should do more about the Zim situation but I just cant seem to get going ( see point 10)

15/ I write poetry and I perform

16/ I regret giving up on my singing

17/ I am a very sensitive person and I am trying to learn the art of letting go and moving on but its hard

18/ There are somethings I am not sure I will ever forgive although forgiveness is at the core of my Christian beliefs – so I am conflicted

19/ I have found that I am stronger than I thought

20/ My parents are my HERO’s and when I grow up I want to be like them

21/ The older I get the more I see more of my mother in me

22/ I believe that JESUS SAVES

23/ I once had really bad whiplash after doing the dutty wine all night ….well at regular intervals… for like 5 hours (CLUB HAMEZH)

25/ I love my sisters (and bro) and I really look up to them as they inspire me in so many different ways ( I probably don’t tell them enough)